"my missing years" by Zen Gardner

My Missing Years

by Zen Gardner
I’ve deliberately avoided this subject as it drags up so much controversy and a lot of traumatic memories besides the deep shame involved, but it’s time to lay it on the table. It certainly aligns with all that is happening vibrationally as well as huge events and changes in my own personal life as this shift turns up the heat, so here comes.
I’ve often referred to several major life changes that I’ve been through but have been deliberately vague about a large part of my life, some even claiming I’m some kind of agent of some sort because of the seeming obscurity about my background. I’ve referenced my previous alternative Christian beliefs but never got into any detail of what that entailed. I write forcefully about religion and belief systems and hierarchy because I was subjected to a severe form of them for almost 27 years.
For the full story: http://www.zengardner.com/my-missing-years/  

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Nothing like surviving a cult to open your eyes, explains a LOT !

I haven't followed ZG, just seen the odd thing over the years, this may be of interest to those who do !


https://earthenergyreader.wordpress.com/2016/08/15/spiritual-con-artistry-and-chicanery-note-highly-disturbing-content-and-nsfw-links-and-information/

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Published on Aug 23, 2016https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EwsrABuB8qY

Angela Power Disney's funding campaing: https://www.gofundme.com/


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Randy Maugans
8 hrs · YouTube · 

CCN'S ZEN GARDNER ASS-KISS INTERVIEW
Jesus said "...whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in Me to stumble, it would be better for him to have a heavy millstone hung around his neck, and to be drowned in the depth of the sea."
Go read what the Children of God pedophile leader, Moses David Berg wrote. Read what the victims said. Then tell me that this fraud deserves an "impartial hearing".
Here it is: an "impartial" hearing" my ass. This Angela Power-Disney claims she's a "Chrisitan". David Moses Berg, the cult leader of The Family/Children of God sex cult said so too. 
CCN doesn't need the millstones---you already sunk to new levels.





Randy Maugans So it be known: I am sickened, disgusted, and embarrassed, to have ever been associated with CCN, Biggi Boho, and Mel Ve. I apologize to my listeners for my lapse of discernment. Order the millstones.



Bernhard Guenther
12 hrs · 


I just received this message from a woman who was actually at Tony Robbin's event where Dawn shared her experience/trauma of being in the Children of God cult: https://youtu.be/fP7w1sQa4ds?t=49m42s (from 50min - 58min) There was way more to it. With her permission, I post her message here (my capitals for highlighting):
"I watched "I am not your Guru" [documentary] and actually it was fascinating because I was actually at that event. I had no idea it was being taped. I remember each and every person who stood up…and most especially Dawn. Her story was so riveting and powerful it touched all of us deeply as I don't think anyone could ever forget it. The actual time spent with her and Tony was more like 2 hours and she went into great detail about what happened to her. 
THIS CULT WAS NOT SOME RUN OF THE MILL CULT BUT CLEARLY AN ORGANIZED PEDOPHILE RING RUN FOR THE ELITE. IT WAS SICKENING TO HEAR HER STORIES AND HOW THESE CHILDREN WERE SO ABUSED AND TRAUMATIZED. SHE TOLD US THE MEN SHE WAS FORCED TO HAVE SEX WITH WERE HIGH LEVEL PEOPLE IN GOVERNMENT AND SOCIETY. Like you I had been studying MK and SRA for a few years so I immediately recognized this type of trauma. Still, I was devastated to hear her story.
I just wanted to say that Tony was remarkable in his care for her and he truly did help her transform her life. I have seen him do this with others. He is the real deal. Even though some of his affiliations are suspect…Bill Clinton & others…I don't believe he knows anything of the evil these people are involved in. I've had my suspicions too but I've been to Tony's events and you just can't fake that kind of sincerity and caring…unless he's MK too but I don't think so. In any event, Zen Gardner is a sick sick man and we will probably see more like him come out of woodwork as veil is lifted…especially form people we trusted. This is just the reality of the world 'they' have created. But people like all of us can move past it because we know a greater good is coming from it and more exposure to these evil creatures can only bring more truth and peace to the world.
Dawn (Sol) said she was "fucked by a billion fathers" to 'show her love for Jesus' and forced to watch her brother and mother be sexuall abused in front of her as well. I will nevEr forget her story or those words. Please don't feel sorry for ZG he is very very sick and what they did to those kids is unfathomable. Even in the end, Dawn found a way to forgive all of her perpetrators, by working with a guru for several years…who then became sick with cancer and was dying…and he said he wanted her to have sex with him so he could be closer to God. She freaked out and almost killed herself…thats how she ended up at Tony's…it was her last hope. She sold everything she owned and bought a ticket. Im so glad it worked out for her but these guys are everywhere…its so sad. But thank you for trying to expose this and doing it in a rational and intelligent way. Don't be afraid to tap into your masculine protective warrior tho that is what is truly needed in this world now more than ever! Thank you!"
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Note: Keep in mind that Dawn (Sol) was 24 when she shared this story at Tony's event recently. So you do the math to see how this cult was still operating in the 90s (and is most likely still operating under different names and disguises).
This ties also into what I mentioned before. There is way more to it than just Zen's involvement. As another researcher wrote and I mentioned as well: This whole revelation has a life of its own now. More and more people are researching the topic - with varying results, but that is to be expected.
I sincerley hope that others also pick up the leads and do their own research before coming to "defend" ZG so easily. It's NOT about a witch hunt but about truth and most importunely to HELP people like Dawn. It's also interesting to note that ZG wrote mostly about himself and his own "struggle" since the "disclosure"(kinda "narcissistic" actually) without really getting into the core issue here: the victims of the COG cult. If he'd be truly sincere and honest, he'd actually have the power to help a lot of people, but before he can do that, I refer to what Randy Maugans wrote in his article http://radio.offplanetmedia.net/…/digging-in-the-dirt-zen-…/ :
"Does Ferguson want forgiveness? Fine. Then, go find your victims. Ask THEM. “We” (the so-called), alternative/truth/consciousness community are busy dealing with the credibility body count now almost daily. Yes, Zen, your consciousness wave came—and it’s a bitch.
Is there forgiveness? Only AFTER there is contrition. DO NOT continue taking your sainted blog podium to admonish “us” about our harshness, our indignation, over the betrayal you performed, not once, but the many times you presented yourself as a sage, a voice, a prophet of wisdom—while HIDING in plain sight!
Shut down your website—except for your confession. Shut down your public podium and speaking—and shut your fucking mouth, until the time when you really have made the inner U-Turn back to humanity. We are all flawed beings, but amongst the flawed also dwell monsters. And the enablers who hide them. Zen Gardner has hidden for 40 years. We don’t confuse good soil with fertilizer. Goodbye." 
On another note, I watched "Zen Gardner"'s interview on CCN (Conscious Consumer Network) yesterday. What he shared was basically the same as in his articles: poor attempts at white-washing, vague explanations and avoidance. The interviewer also did a poor job of "journalism" and seemed more to help him in his attempt to buffer things up. You also don't need to have a masters in psychology to see in Zen's body language and eyes, the words he chose, etc. that he's hiding a lot and is lying. A friend of mine also contacted me because he was submitting a question during the live interview which the host distorted and didn't really confront Zen on. It was about the fact the he didn't come "clean" out of his own choice but was pressured into it by Steve Seymour. Also the fact that CCN wrote an article in defense of Zen Gardner prior to the interview (which Zen posted on his website) shows the lack of objectivity and cannot even be called "journalism".



Bernhard Guenther and the irony of all ironies, "Zen" just sent me this email with that quote attached to it. (I replied to him with what I posted above):

"interview that might help you fill in some gaps - no hard feelings Guenther...

http://www.zengardner.com/angela-power-disney-talks-zen.../

"In our deepest moments of struggle, frustration, fear, and confusion, we are being called upon to reach in and touch our hearts. Then, we will know what to do, what to say, how to be. What is right is always in our deepest heart of hearts. It is from the deepest part of our hearts that we are capable of reaching out and touching another human being. It is, after all, one heart touching another heart."
- Roberta Sage Hamilton



Randy Maugans He found his mouthpiece. They used an interviewer handpicked and trained by Mel V. to do EXACTLY what Zen labeled as mainstream matrix methods. Substitute CCN with MSNBC and Zen Gardner with Bill Clinton...depends on what is is...voila!



Liz Garrett Johnson It's really interesting to see the patterns here (in the article) that seem to be a common thread in all who are Illuminati puppets.




Bernhard Guenther Also the fact that he sent that quote makes me actually nauseous. There is no "self-awareness". At this point I have no idea who is in this body that calls itself "Zen Gardner". Can't even take it personal, It's like something hijacked him or has been programmed that way all along, hiding behind a "mask of sanity".



Liz Garrett Johnson Bernhard Guenther Yep, exactly. There's a word for that: infiltration.




Liz Garrett Johnson Anytime there is an "I", that is infiltration. It is the ego/mind attempting to compensate for.....





Bernhard Guenther Randy Maugans, that's exactly what I was just thinking today. Certain "alternative" media outlets are starting to do exactly the same as what is happening in the Mainstream Media . And it's ALSO about ratings. Don't forget that. "Zen" is a hot topic right now so any show he'll be on will get tons of hits.


Previous comments on same subject.


Robert Duncan O'Finioan In my opinion . . .and this is just my opinion, based on knowledge and personal experience, this is but the tip of the ice burg to what's coming. Zen is doing damage control before the major "fall out". Watch for other "big" names to be involved. Also, in my opinion he can be castrated and hung. . . I'm sorry that's not "love and light".



Chad Roche Love and light is a brand.





Jules Rules just like 'cancer', the name is trademarked.



Robert Duncan O'Finioan Being that "zen" won't allow me to post this on HIS site, I'll put it here. Well...."Zen" just what are you going to do? You going to have the balls to do anything other then praise people who praise you?
YOU have the courage to name names? Stand in a court room and point fingers? Admit ALL of your actions while in the cult?
I know damn YOU had a bigger role then you admit in your "crying" post.
How bout it? What legal actions are you willing to endure to really make things "RIGHT"?